Reflection

How did we get in there? Growl asks me looking at his reflection in his book on Curly the Pig.

You have grown. Your endless banter makes me laugh.

You know all Bodhidharma's clients. You dream of going to Hong Kong in Dragon Air.

You google, click, search for images.

You've started working on puzzles and we cycle whenever I am strong enough to take you.

Everyday I think shouldn't I be recording all this? But all I do is listen.

One day I lost my temper as you refused to eat. Now I think that storm is over. LKG is almost over. Peanut now has a grip on his pencil.

Growl is trying to read. You can count till 30.

Counseling

Peanut has a counselor.

I think thats why he didn't have any lunch today.

I hate schools...he tells me yesterday.

Well, we have a long way to go Peanut. Its good to be troubled now and happy later.....I was happy as a child and later on I grew troubled.....oh don't worry. You know amma....troubled...its an in-the-head thing.

Don't worry Peanut....Growl too... you know there is this whole credit-snatching business going on with me at work. But I was thinking today...who needs credit when she has you?

And I thought that by the lift, looking out of the grill.I love you both.

Peanuts

Had a parent teacher meet and four year Peanut seems to have an attention problem. Turns out he may need a one-to-one twice a week.....wonder how you'll take it Peanut. It's ok really....today the idea is to spare the rod and be more compassionate....that takes more time....but i think you'll come out fine.

You are such a carefree child. Which is how you must always be.You are only four.

Tiny tot.

Goodbye 2009

 

Obituary of an insect

The boys are addicted to insects. They beat me and Big M up when we do not display compassion toward the insect tribe.

Growl:Leave them alone. Let them go.

When I instinctively beat up a housefly, Peanut was distressed. The fly was dying and swirling down. Says Peanut: It was a brave insect.It went up and down and side to side.

Like you tell me boys:I'm so proud of you:)

Struggling

I tried for a while....lugged you to the library....read books....tried a tonne of things...switched on the PC for you so that you would be interested in the New York Met Museum.

Then I had my aha moment...you are four....I am trying to do what?

Right now, I wait for the next semester and really think about how involved I have been with the story of my life. It's the first time I'm teaching...so I was under pressure that way to get things done. Everything had an air of pressure behind it. The good thing now is that I am relieved. I know that teaching is a slow process- you don't have to breathe down someone's neck. You just have to be composed and believe in your methods with utter simple faith, the way you choose or not to believe in god.

So I will use my simple methods once again. With joy. With patience. Otherwise see that headache coming.

FM Twinz

Yes have been lazy about updating on Peanut and Growl...they have changed tremendously over the last two months. Terribly lazy to write yet hypertalkative...I should be recording everything they are doing.....but I'm a way too preoccupied mom. I've had enough time off guys to tell you guys that I'm glad I've had you. But I'm tired. The amoebisasis plus flu has knocked me out..........

Growl: Jupiter fell down and chicks fell out.

Peanut: Uncle and Grampa look the same. They don't have any hair.

Growl: I can't eat with my right hand. I have no bones.

Peanut: Why does he get everything-blocks and cycle?

Peanut/Growl: I'm so happy. I like you.

Peanut: Grampa doesn't like violence. I like.

This list is a fraction of the continuous jabber FM Twinz.

Do you know you have a genius cousin....I wonder when you guys will start writing. I've completely stopped forcing you. I want you to be happy like the sunny days you talk about. Never melacholic. Ever Never.